Two Weeks Today

I can't believe my sweet baby Felicity is TWO WEEKS OLD!! She is growing really fast and I think amazing how strong she is when holding her head up and arching her back backwards. She is so calm and sweet hardly ever cries exempt when I change her clothes or if she is super hungry, but she is a very good eater and is so patient she perfectly happy to just sit in her bassinet and look around she sleeps so good at night she will go 3hours and starting to sleep 5 hours in between feedings. She loves to have bath time and to have a little massage right before bed time plus it is a great bonding time for mom and baby!

Many people say she looks just like me everywhere we go so I hope she will continue to be that way! I can also see alot of similarities in our personalities I think you can really tell that she is my daughter. Like she is so calm, happy, loves to be wrapped in soft cozy blanket, and quiet and loves to sleep in the car:)

Since I had a c-section we have been staying at my parents house so that my mom can help me and I don't have to be alone while Russell works when he has time off he comes to see us which is usually at night so basically he comes here to sleep and help at night feedings he is a great husband and father Felicity and I are very lucky girls!

Felicity Sage Baldwin

The last week of being pregnant is brutal. My feet hurt. I can't sleep well. None of my clothes want to fit and I don't want to buy stuff that I'll only wear for a couple of days. . . That was my mindset going into week FORTY-ONE!

Dr. Skuster got my blood results and my medicine levels had dropped significantly, leaving me open for a seizure. Thankfully, Dr. Horvath agreed that since I was past my due date and we had a good medical reason to not want to push the pregnancy we could move forward with an induction.

We went in at nine-thirty at night on Wednesday. I was having fairly regular contractions, so they waited on the oxytocin drip. No progression. Around eleven-thirty, the on-call doctor said to begin and so we did. Russ was helpful with changing the movies and assisting me to the restroom and stayed up pretty late to keep me company - though he did fall asleep for a bit from four to six that morning.

Twelve hours in and we still hadn't seen much. I was beginning to get exhausted and Dr. Horvath came and saw me. Cervical exams were not going well and they hurt. She suggested that we go with an epidural so that my body could relaxed and allow me to progress.

The epidural was scary. The doctor did a wonderful job, but I was emotionally drained and not ready to get stuck with a needle. He was legally obligated to tell me about all the risks, but he didn't do much to assuage my fears as he did so. Russ held my hand and helped me with breathing techniques and I made it through. Sadly, even the epidural didn't help me to get dilated and effaced.

Dr. Horvath then recommended doing a C-Section. We would have to be at the natural labor for probably another fourteen to sixteen hours and the first sixteen had me beat. Mom and Russ both thought that at this point it was a good idea, so I went with it. (Russ says I was brave and did a good job the whole time.)

I don't remember a lot of the surgery as they had increased the medicine to block pain throughout all my torso and legs. It makes you tired and fuzzy. Russ says the surgery was quick and before you could say supercalifragilisticexpialidocious, Felicity was all cleaned up and with her daddy.

Felicity Sage Baldwin. Twenty-one inches long. Seven pounds thirteen ounces. Born at 4:04 PM 13 May 2010 at St. Mark's Hospital in Millcreek, Utah. Isn't she darling?

one of those days

I can't ever get the pictures to go in the order that I want them in! These are pictures of Felicitys room though!

I still want to get vinyl lettering above the crib that says "Felicity Sage Happiness and Wisdom"

I have had a hard day today! since I had a nap today and so many thoughts and emotions going on I thought I should write to try to get the thought out of my head so hopefully I can go to sleep soon its late and so I hope that this post will make any sence to anyone else cause I know that it will probably be scattered with thoughts, anger, and emotions as I try to get my feelings out...

I know that my due date isnt until Friday but after last night when I thought I was having some good contractions making some progress on my labor of getting my lil girl here. Today I woke up feeling discouraged I dont sleep im awake every hour, had a fight with Russell and then at the doctor I have made no progress in dialation. I am VERY emotional today, yes I do cry very easy I always have but still.. I just want this whole pregnancy thing over and done with because I'm really tired of having no energy to do anything and having none of my clothes fit right so I never feel cute anymore but since Felicity should be here soon I cant bring myself to go shopping for clothes that hopefully wont fit to long! I'm very disliking how sore and swollen my hands and feet are lately. I'm so uncomfortable and I just feel like this pregancy will never end.

I want my clothes to fit again, I want to feel that I look cute I'm tired of feeling so fat, tired and lazy all the time! I want my little girl here so that I can start getting back on the road to feeling like me again. I am tired of this cold weather I need the warmth of the sun so summer needs to hurry here fast! gurrr well since my husband just got home from work I guess I will go and try to sleep hopefully things will be better tomorrow