Family night

So I've told myself that I want to start doing better at having family night every Monday night even though it is without Russell. So tonight I decided it was time to cook the cookie mix that our neighbor gave us as a Christmas gift. Yes I know I totally slacked so we made Christmas cookies tonight. Well while they cooked felicity was trying to talk me into turning on Diego and I told her no which I totally regret now because she burned her hand!! I was so frightened I told her to stay back where she was every other time I use the oven she's great she knows to stay back and decently not touch but this time I opened it went to grab the oven mit and at the exact same time she went to grab the pan!!! I couldn't believe it! I swooped her up threw her hand under cold water an then called my friend she came right over with some lavender oil. I keep meaning to by some but just never get it. I wrapped it in a cold towel but she hated that. She just wanted in her blanket. She is in a stage where she carries 4 or 5 with her everywhere, but anyways I finally talked her into letting me get one if her blankets cold and wrap her hand that way. With the help of lots of chocolate I was able to get some tylenol down her and it just broke my heart when she would look a me and say mommy it's not working it still hurts!! It took an hour then she was sitting up talking about Diego as usual so I got her to eat cucumbers, strawberries, and cheese, and of course some cookies awesome dinner right. Well she eventually she fell asleep out on the living room floor. Here's to hoping she sleeps through the night. Well Detroit has gone back to sleep so I should try to but him down and try to get some rest so I hopefully get rid if the cold.. Goodnight

5 months

Well I have this horrible habit of starting post but never get them finished and posted..
As I sit here at 11pm holding Detroit going on 3 hours now trying to get him to sleep I thought would try to catch up on a few things, first, a couple of weeks ago felicity got a cold and was nice enough to give it to Detroit. Yeah NOT cool! Detroit turned 5 months old. Then just when I thought he was doing better, Sunday night he wouldn't sleep and cried all night! I felt hopeless I had no idea what could be wrong he had never cried like that and for all night long EVER! So as soon as the doctor office opened I called I knew something had to be wrong with my little man! But he was full so could not see him! I was so sad NOW WHAT I thought what kinda doctor won't see my child who cried all through the night!! A few minutes later a different nurse called back and said that he would fit me in at 11:15 so we hurried and got ready and dropped Russell off and his class so that we could have the car. When we got to the doctor he had a fever of 101.2. Doctor Jackson came in and said he had been seeing RSV going around so checked that first and everything sounded good so great i thought but he is still screaming! Detroit has a very bad left ear infection he said and gave him so pain killer and wrote up an antibiotic. I was so grateful that he fit him in so that we could get an quick answer because Russell as a child got a bunch of ear infections to where they would almost burst. I just got lucky that Felicity never got an ear infection. But it is hard to tell how Detroit is feeling because he really is so good nature really never complains so I never know when I need to give him Advil but then at night he hates sleeping he will only sleep if someone is holding him! It doesn't matter how tightly he is wrapped or how softly and quietly you put him down he can be completely asleep snoring even and then he always seems to wake up as soon as we put him down!
So during the day he seems fine so even being sick he had figured out how to roll back to tummy and is very proud of himself but doesn't quite have tummy to back yet so gets a little frustrated when trying to play..

Families forever

It's been a hard couple of months for my family first my grandpa Tom( my dads dad) died unexpectedly on Thanksgiving Nov. 22 then Grammy Gayle( my moms mom) died exactly a month later Dec. 22 right after we had a family Christmas party.
Today was grandma gayle's funeral. It was a great winter day to celebrate her life. She was an amazing women. She had real unconditional love for everyone she was always optimistic and always smiling and loved treats and was always handing them out.
How can I be so happy for her to be reunited with her family and grandpa but yet have it hurt so much. I am so grateful she is happy and no longer suffering. During her life she always had to be busy and doing something so having this sickness was so difficult as she forgot how to do everything. She didn't know how to just do nothing. She made all her grandchildren feel loved and important supporting us in what ever we did. I remember her coming to all my dance performances she could. She loved this gospel and she loved teaching in church and teaching school. She had a strong testimony of the power of prayer and say she had a direct line to heaven, and she did for sure!
I am so grateful for this gospel and for the knowledge that I have she is in heaven healed and happy. I will see her again someday. I'm sure she busy serving and teaching others there.
Grammy gayle I hope to live a love filled life just like you. You were as near to perfect as anyone could be I believe -thank you for your example in family life and eternal families. Till we are together again.. I love you so much!

Thanksgiving

This year at Thanksgiving it was at my parents house and Felicity was the only grandchild of my parents there so Myndee was able to give her most of her attention so she was loving it!!  My mom's brother and sister and most of  their kids came so we had a house full but it was great to catch up with the cousins and play games!  UNTIL we got a call saying grandpa Tom had been taken to the hosiptal and wasnt going to make it...

 

Grammy Gayle

I love my grammy so much.  about 6 months ago she was diagnosed with Alzheimer's and dementia.  every day she is weaker and weaker and more and more confused it is really is so hard for me to watch her going away so quickly and beginning to suffer day after day.  She doesn't want to leave her house EVER but can't ever be left alone now anymore so we are just taking it day by day with any  family member who can help out taking a turn to sit and help her. My mom is basically living in Logan most on the week until the beginning of the year when we will possibly try a nursing home.  She cold and shaky most of the time and is losing alot of weight because she is never feels hungry its just got to be hard that the messages are not communicating with the brain properly.  The nurses have brought a wheel chair and a hospital bed for her- but for a woman who never liked to sit down and always needed to be doing -something this sickness where she can't remember stuff and is hard for her to even move is being so difficult for her.  She hates the hospital bed which I can't blame her cause its not her bed and lets face it they are very uncomfortable! 

 

I was up there a couple of weeks ago when a nurse came to check on her a clean her up I started to help grammy up off the couch the nurse stopped me because she wanted to check her muscle strength see if she stops using them we know they will deteriorate even faster and she did it! once she got the chance to try and told she could the (nurse had to remind her to push with her hand on the couch and use also for stability, push down on the floor with her feet.) so she has the muscle..  its that she is forgetting how to do it and is very scared and nervous about everything. 

 

She is suffering there is not much living ability left, she talks about wanting to be home and be where Frank is, grandpa passed away four years ago, I long for her to be with her best friend.  I, of course, don't wish or hope that she pass away. it is just that I know that she misses him so much and wants to be with him in heaven!  I am grateful for the gospel so I know that he is waiting patiently for her while gram and us finish what ever lesson we need to learn from this. Then we will all be together again someday. 

 

 

    When I was looking through my pictures that I have I was surprised by the difference in theses pictures.  They are just a month a part -Detroit's baby blessing Oct. 14, 2012 then Thanks giving Nov 23, 2012..

I really hope she wont have to suffer much longer.  I will miss her a TON but at the same time I don't want her to be in pain anymore. I love u so much gram!

Detroit's Blessing

I was REALLY bad at taking pictures of this special day, but I do love theses father-son pictures and Russell gave Detroit such a wonderful blessing he sure loves his son!  After sacrement we had soup and salads at my parents house. 

5 generations

Family Pictures

this one captures her personality so well because she loves books!

 

Felicity loves to have her pictures taken and she so adorable so I can't help posting a bunch of her...

Teaching Detroit early to be a giants baseball fan.. :)

Love my Family!